i am in the process of cleaning my room. the thing about my room is, is that it’s more of a studio more than a bedroom. I’m sure if i were to move out all the art supplies, papers, & collections that inhabit every corner of my room, it would be a little more streamlined. SUCH A MESS
but i did find twenty bucks in my gym bag from months and months ago.
i watched this last night and i wasn’t really into it until the ending
Expediency wins so often because the obvious is overlooked. If a new idea is worth anything, it should make everyone a little nervous. It will be tougher to sell. But these are all good signs. It means the idea carries change within it. And part of our makeup as a species is to push back hard before we accept anything new.
because there was a ringing in my ears that would not let up. i was legitimately scared that the silence of my room was the last thing i would ever hear and it made me panic and sick to my stomach
i wish we didn’t need moneys
I’ve applied for many summer jobs and haven’t heard back from any. They all start next week and I have a feeling I won’t be hearing anything. I have two more to apply for and I’m really going to make sure I get an interview. It’s a defeating feeling.
- Him: Jade
- Her: Alexander
- Him: Do you remember that day you fell outta my window?
- Her: I sure do, you came jumping out after me.
- Him: Well, you fell on the concrete, nearly broke your ass, you were bleeding all over the place and I rushed you out to the hospital, you remember that?
- Her: Yes I do.
- Him: Well there's something I never told you about that night.
- Her: What didn't you tell me?
- Him: While you were sitting in the backseat smoking a cigarette you thought was gonna be your last, I was falling deep, deeply in love with you, and I never told you 'til just now.
Today I drove around the city, beginning with a greenhouse and ending in a shoe store and in between visiting independent coffee shops and music stores, so that I could grace them with my resume.
They weren’t very promising, although HMV did ask me my availability and wage expectations and the guys working there seemed super chill so that was my glimmer of hope for the day.
I went to Indigo and imagined spending all working day skipping and hopping down the many aisles & aisles of books and it made me so happy that I spent $25 on “Stranger Music” by Leonard Cohen and did not even get to leave my resume at the till.
At home, my dear mother linked me to a job bank website where I e-mailed 3 potential employees. A landscaping job, an office job, and a personal assistant job.
I must say, I feel better now that I’ve actually gone out and given my resume to 10 places.
- 1: Do you like fishsticks?
- 2: Yes
- 1: So you like putting fishsticks in your mouth?
- 2: Yes
- 1: What are you? A gay fish?
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i drew a cool drawing today and want to use my watercolors so badly!!!!!
New York Cab
Years ago I had decided to clean up a huge jar of random change and put it all in rolls so that one day I could take it to the bank. I never did take it to the bank and I just found a huge bag of these filled rolls of change.
I might be jobless, but I seem to keep finding little presents from the past.
we took a break from studying so we made a trip to Whyte Avenue
in search of guitar straps, i declared my desire to play the bongo’s and Davis declared his desire to be in a band
with a talented singer and songwriter already in our group, things just headed in this direction.
we are going to be a band. i don’t know how established it will be, but it will be nice to just get together and play some music for fun.
all members of our group won’t be united until next year though, so hopefully we develop well until then.
guitar, bass guitar, bongo’s, tambourine, keyboard and harmonica
it’s almost like he wanted to fuck someone over and he just happened to pull my name out of the hat
i have no commitments.
i am waiting to hear back from a job that i probably won’t get.
i am working at a job that i hardly exist at, that gave me $50 on my last pay cheque.
i am finished with school, and interviews with my profs.
interviews with my profs, where, my future as a designer was critiqued and estimated. where they ripped up my weak presentations and my 8-page booklet which i happened to re-start 2 days before the due date (because of a better idea) and left me with the boost that tells me that i am good at conceptualizing, which is the hard part that most people have trouble with… the rest can be learned.
which actually made me really happy because that’s the part i usually put myself down for.
i just suffered from the great illness of lacking motivation.
but at least the grass is greener.
if all else fails: this summer i will better myself and perhaps gain the confidence i should have had all along.
HAPPY EARTH DAY FROM ALL OF US AT GOTWISDOM.
- non-designer: So you're a designer. What do you make?
- designer: Everything God didn't.
things that i think about doing so badly
but know i never can’t.